Hi Abbieed,

Welcome to this supportive forum.  I am so sorry to read about your mother's cancer. I can understand your concerns but just remember there is a part of your mother in you which she has passed on to you through her genes.

I speak as someone who lost his mother to breast cancer which spread to her brain. But now quite often, I say or do something and I realize it's just what my mother would have said or done. I find this very comforting for it's almost as though, she is still guiding and helping me through life. I feel sure when the time comes, you will feel your mothers influence just like me.

For now, just try and make as many happy memories as you can, difficult as that may be and make sure your mother knows the love you have for her for that will help her so much. There are times when I miss mt mother, But I draw on the many happy memories i have stored away in that filling cabinet called my brain and that I find that really does help.

Take care Abbieed and please keep in contact, Brian.