Hi, I'm feeling very low today, getting very teary and realising that this nightmare is reality. Today I keep wondering how I am going to cope without my dad. I can't bare to think about the future. Life has been turned upside down after dads terminal cancer diagnosis.  It feels as though everyone else is carrying on as normal and that things are normal now that it has been a few weeks since diagnosis and that no one cares. I don't know why I m thinking like this. I'm getting upset at small things done by thoughtless meme era of the family. Dad has no energy, and it's so difficult to see him how he is. I am trying to be with him as much as possible.  He is currently undergoing chemo.  It's is absolutely heartbreaking. I feel so helpless, I wish there was something could do to take away what he is going  through.  Today he seemed so down....