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Continuing the journey

Hi All

Decided to drop the 'month' from the title of this thread as time moves so quickly and the date becomes irrevelant so quickly.

Hubby and I both feeling pretty drained today but not because of his illness. However it is something that has made both us further stressed and 'outside our control'.  Prepare yourselves for a rant or look away now.

Having put in a long work day yesterday (both of us). I switched on my mobile on leaving work to find a message from the social worker for Mum (regular readers of my thread will know what we have been going through recently).  The upshott of this message was that the Social Services panel have decided that they can offer Mum a place at a sheltered housing complex but not the most local one. The call was to advise me of the panel's decision and to tell me that a visit will be arranged this week, preferably by Wednesday, for Mum to be taken to visit the flat and be told about the package of care and how it will work. They require a decision from Mrs K (this is how my mother is addressed in the follow up e-mail!!) by Friday otherwise the placement will be offered to another service provider!  Unfortunately this means Mum has little choice but to move further away (closest sheltered housing has no vacancy and they are  not willing to help fund where she has spent the last 9 months 'settling in').  The guilt I feel at being unable to cope with this is overwhelming, my hubby is very supportive and angry in equal parts and I am dreading the days ahead.  I am unable to take leave and my negative feelings towards her social worker would not work in Mum's favour as she needs to go on the visit with an open mind and the care home staff state she is quite able to make her own mind up.  If she agrees I will be unable to visit as regularly (my problem not theirs of course) but apparently the social worker will accompany her and I have asked to be kept informed.

Even typing this is making me sad/angry/frustrated and emotionally/physically drained.  I was due to visit Mum today but this is on hold until I have spoken to the care home this morning. Hubby says I should leave it till later in the week when we know what is going on and I suspect he is right (bearing in mind my physical upset involves many 'loo' visits (enough said!!)).

Sorry for all the negativity but just needed to get it out and try and get  myself together before I start on the phone calls.

Hope everyone has a good day.  Regards Julesxx

  • Thanks Hope,

    To be honest was expecting more paperwork but so far so good. Lots of the info can be done on the computer and all our bank meetings lasted less than half hour (all done today). Zack smiled throughout and is helping us all cope as he is just starting to walk unaided and giggles continuously whilst doing it. Tomorrow am having some retail therapy - need new iron!

    Christmas cake and chocs fast disappearing unlike my waistline!!

    Son and son in law both back to work today until the funeral but all friends relatives now aware either by phone or letter so think I can take a breather and am planning a manicure some time soon.

    Hope you are looking after yourself and house tenancy is going ok.  Really do wish private messaging was back.  Take care  hugs Jules x

  • Hi Steven,

    Thank you for the congratulations on my course, it feels ggod to have a half decent qualification since leaving college a little while back -- well more than a little while back actually.

    It seems we have something in common in that we had more than one heartache to deal with in a short time and so as a result I am still trying to fgure things out three years after everything started. Jules has been a big help to me over the second half of that time and I know that she joins myself and many others in missing the private message part of the old site but it will be back at some point.

    You are also very right about big companies and it seems that the company I work for is falling into that same category as it grows and begins to dismiss "the people on the ground" who keep everything going. I just don't understand why it happens!

    Garf.

  • Hi Jules,

    I have found myself doing the same as you and continuing to plough my way through the chocolates aquired over the festive period.  No Christmas cake for me though as I was never a fan of it.

    I made a small step towards burning some if it off after work today by going for a swim in the pool at work.  There was an alterior motive though as I put a pair of goggles on and kept swimming to the bottom to make sure the newly tiled pool bottom was holding up after it all re-opened on boxing day.  So far so good!

    That manicure sounds like a good idea and I was wondering if you could include a massage with it?  There are few things more relaxing than a good skin polish!

    Good luck with the rest of your calorie intake.

    Garf. xx

  • Yea - Garf = but in the end Rome fell - because they were more interested in the process (filling in bits of paper) - than the product (ruling the empire) = and Rome fell! Oh well - a job is only a job - nothing more than a job and is just a job! Its been a life saver to me though as it offered stability in a World of sudden storms and squalls. Lets hope it all stays calm until we reach port!! good luck on the studying = I also study and find it easier than when I was younger - I am more organised now!  All the jolly best = steven  

  • Hello Garf a big congrats on passing your course its so nice to hear some good news well done you and all the best with whatever comes next ...Sueanne

  • Mornng Garf

    Not on usual routine (normally out doing washing by now!) as you can imagine but am going shopping with our daughter once the school run done. Iron not in good nick so need to replace (exciting!!) and buy packs of thank you cards. 

    Am in a quandery as to where my thread should 'sit' now that my caring role has gone so have sought the advice of the moderators. Of course the journey continues but in a far different way.

    The 'large wedge' of Christmas cake was a lovely gift from my bingo buddy as a 'treat' - we did not have one this year as we were away. So happy we made a last Christmas/New Year together and firmly believe hubby soldiered on to achieve this for us all as he loved that time of year with family.

    Am looking forward to 'nail pampering' end of next week Am going to the lady that works from home (and does my daughter's nails from time to time) with my daughter (a little girlie night) as as hubby's fav colour was purple, may well choose that shade (also a favourite of mine).

    Loving the fact that you use work excuse to take a dip but do you swim regularly any way - I hear its very good for you. Glad you found no problems in the pool and hope the  body stood up to the test too Eldest grandson goes to swimming lessons once a week and is doing well - wish I had his energy!

    Well best get back to the grind of housework.  I know hubby was not much of a talker but after having him here 24/7 for nearly three years during his illness its somewhat strange to have no one to run things by at a moment's notice.  Support of our children is amazing  but they need their own space to grieve though I suppose we all need each other too  and its finding the right level - a new learning curve and one no one ever wants.

    Sending virtual hugs. Jules x

  • Hi Jo

    Nice to know that its not only Garf who has a 'stalker' keeping a look out for me.lol

    Just waiting for our daughter to walk eldest to school and then she is joining me to go into town for a little shopping.  Hubby hated to shop so this is something which it would be normal to do without him (but must get out of the long held habit of buying his chocolate!!!).

    How are you?  Sending hugs your way.Jules x

  • Have a lovely day Jules = you are totally inspirational. Just heard of a local business leader has got altzheimers (i hope I spelt that correctly). I am shocked as he is the business man I really respect. Thats nearly all our local business community in trouble one way or another

  • Hi Brian

    Extremely windy but dry here this  morning so no doubt will  be helped along when I go out shortly. I have a six wheel trolley (it helps with stair amazingly well as its 'curb climber').  Am on my second one as wore the wheels out on the first and then the bag!!!  Of course if you begin to walk  more for excercise you could counteract with a few more 'nut calories'  ha ha (not sure you should let Mrs B know my evil thoughts though).

    I cannot believe it, have just gone into the garden to feed birds and have been able to pick a bunch of white peace roses - what is our weather doing????

    Hope you and Mrs  B have a peaceful day.  Take care  Jules x

  • thanks Steven, I will try hard to give us a restful day and with little Zack's smiles it will be 'happy' time.Jules x