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Continuing the journey

Hi All

Decided to drop the 'month' from the title of this thread as time moves so quickly and the date becomes irrevelant so quickly.

Hubby and I both feeling pretty drained today but not because of his illness. However it is something that has made both us further stressed and 'outside our control'.  Prepare yourselves for a rant or look away now.

Having put in a long work day yesterday (both of us). I switched on my mobile on leaving work to find a message from the social worker for Mum (regular readers of my thread will know what we have been going through recently).  The upshott of this message was that the Social Services panel have decided that they can offer Mum a place at a sheltered housing complex but not the most local one. The call was to advise me of the panel's decision and to tell me that a visit will be arranged this week, preferably by Wednesday, for Mum to be taken to visit the flat and be told about the package of care and how it will work. They require a decision from Mrs K (this is how my mother is addressed in the follow up e-mail!!) by Friday otherwise the placement will be offered to another service provider!  Unfortunately this means Mum has little choice but to move further away (closest sheltered housing has no vacancy and they are  not willing to help fund where she has spent the last 9 months 'settling in').  The guilt I feel at being unable to cope with this is overwhelming, my hubby is very supportive and angry in equal parts and I am dreading the days ahead.  I am unable to take leave and my negative feelings towards her social worker would not work in Mum's favour as she needs to go on the visit with an open mind and the care home staff state she is quite able to make her own mind up.  If she agrees I will be unable to visit as regularly (my problem not theirs of course) but apparently the social worker will accompany her and I have asked to be kept informed.

Even typing this is making me sad/angry/frustrated and emotionally/physically drained.  I was due to visit Mum today but this is on hold until I have spoken to the care home this morning. Hubby says I should leave it till later in the week when we know what is going on and I suspect he is right (bearing in mind my physical upset involves many 'loo' visits (enough said!!)).

Sorry for all the negativity but just needed to get it out and try and get  myself together before I start on the phone calls.

Hope everyone has a good day.  Regards Julesxx

  • Hi Jules             

    I have had a good morning, went out on my own like a grown up boy with my camera and had a fantastice three hours  the sun was fantastic the birds /Ducks were great and the dear posed for me as well .

    One picture stands out and I want to share it with you all .

    And later at 3.0pm we did the school run for our son and wife both busy  working  fed Beth and back home by 5.30.a good day  was had by all .

    right now for this one off picture please enjoy [[ ]]

  • Lovely pictures and it looks like lovely weather. Gosh down here (Portsmouth) it was dark with rain clouds and some really heavy rain. Went to Finchdean - but never arrived as the roads are closed by flooding..

  • Evening George

    What a beautiful picture of the mallard and lovely reflection too. You caught the beauty of nature.  Your weather bit better than ours.I did go for 2hr walk which began in sunshine but though no rain it was dark clouds overhead by the time I returned home.   We had a visit from our daughter and family for a couple of hours Sunday afternoon which was great - always enjoy the family time.  Sending peaceful thoughts and virtual hugs.  Jules x

  • Hi Jules,

    What a lovely day it is today so you should be able to get to see your mother in the dry. Hope she is in responsive mood today and you are able to have a good conversation with her. .

    My son went to a big archery shoot at the weekend and my granddaughter is now the Sussex champion for her group and also for a wider area. She didn't feel happy about it though as she was the only one that turned up so she won by default. But as you can guess, I am very proud of her. When we were shopping this morning your mention of cashew nuts the other day meant that a bag of them appeared in our trolley this morning. Don't know how they got there????????? They didn't last long when I got home however

    I love your mention of your grandson looking skywards when having to put his hand up and this made me smile when I read it. I am pleased Afaith/ Ann has returned to the forum see the Back Again thread.

    Hope to press on with my story's this afternoon.

    Take care best wishes, Brian

    P.S. Love the picture of the duck George, beautiful picture.

  • Hi Brian

    Thanks for the 'hands up' as to the return of Ann to the forum and I have now added to her thread.  Nice to have her updated news and her lovely chat.

    Lovely that your grandaughter is doing well with the archery and shows she is dedicated as she 'showed up' so definitely deserves her reward.

    Trip to Mum was a bit short this week.  She was much the same but did not want me to stay long so when she began to doze off I said my good byes.  We discussed her finances (needs must) as the home fees are being increased as from next month.  Her only repsonse was what a nuisance but I have enough to last a bit longer!!  I will need to keep an eye on things as eventually will have to arrange for social services to be re-contacted as she will be unable to stay once her savings dwindle and she will have to accept their decision as to her care eventually.

    Hubby has just welcomed our neighbour's cats in so has something to keep him awake for a while so am off to make pancakes for his lunch.  chat again soon and good  luck with the book writing - when you going into publication?.  Jules  x

  • Hi Jules,

    How are you?  It was only when I read your post that I realised I'd forgotten about pancake day!  Was never much good at making them anyway but can't believe my youngest didn't nag me for some tonight!  Hope your's turned out OK - did the cat end up getting any? Reading your posts it sounds like your grandchildren are doing really well.  Shame your trip to your Mum was a little short, but she must be comfortable there if she easily nodds off.  Must be a worry about the financial aspect of things, but as is our slogon on here "one day at a time" is all we can do.  Take care.  Hope x

  • Hi Hope

    Well can honestly say wish I had forgotten about pancake day!!  Only bother to make them because hubby likes them (I did not have them) and out of the mix I managed just two decent ones - the rest arrived on the plate in bits. Bless him he ate what he could and the bin ate the rest and no we do not feed cats with any of our food as would not want to upset the owners'!!!!   I have told hubby that next year I will take him out for pancake day.

    Hope you had a pleasant weekend and no doubt work keeping you busy.

      I am at work today and then off until next Wednesday so hoping to be able to spend some time in the garden (getting new lawnmower tomorrow so the lawn should be lot less bovver with a hover).  I would love to be able to get out there and do some tidying but definitely will be wearing the wellies as its still very soggy.  Just hoping that the recent morning frosts do not ruin my display of daffodils and miniature tulips.  Fingers crossed I can encourage hubby to get out of the house a bit more as at present he is sitting around all day most days and thats not what the docs expecting (of course wont nag, just ask if he wants to keep me company and do a few slow short walks as its becoming obvious that the with sitting most of the day his legs are already losing strength but he does not like the idea of using support (stick?) - its sad because he should be enjoying life whilst he has the ability and the consultant has tried so hard to help him but in the end it has to be his decision.  It appears that the only time I see a smile is when the cats come round and yet he is still telling the community nurse (and me when I dare to ask) that pain is controlled and he does not need help with anything. Just his way of dealing with 'being retired' - I suppose I should not be that surprised as his Dad was just the same.

    Expecting a busy couple of weeks at work with the time surrounding World Book Day (tomorrow).(though I will miss much of it )  We used to have school classes visit for tours/reading on the day itself but such are our staffing levels these days (one person on department most days) that we have not been able to do anything this year.  My grandson will be getting his World Book Day voucher in school this week and the class have to dress up as their favourite character from a story so will look forward to hearing all about it next time we see them.

    Take care of yourself and sending virtual hugs.  Jules x

  • Hi Jules,

    Have at last managed to clean the car this morning. Car is now squeaky clean but I am now very dirty, don't know how that happened??????. Mrs B wont let me sit down on the sofa or the armchairs until I have had a bath. I did throw out hints I could do with some help cleaning it but all Mrs B did was to come and stand there supervising. She kept pointing out bits I had missed, what I call a back seat cleaner!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

    Glad Annie get your gun cream lady has returned to the fold as like you I missed her sense of fun. Jules what's this I read about you and a scone??? Don't tell me your still suffering from Brianitus too Jules  Has to get two new tyres for the car yesterday and that took the smile off my face (and a big hole in my pocket to go with it)

    Hope you manage to mow your lawn okay when you get you new mower. I had a look at ours this morning and it is still very wet underfoot so will leave it for a day or so and hope it dry's out a bit more.

    Enjoy your days off and don't work too hard and hope you enjoy your time with your friend. Take care, Hugs, Brian

  • Morning Brian,

    Just to let you know Brianitus never goes away - just into hibernation - it cames into its own at the best of times and is comforting.(thats my excuse and I am sticking to it!!).

    Well, yesterday was mission accomplished.  First we visited the pharmacy as hubby's district nurse had arranged a 'stand by pack of various medications' for us to have at home for their use in case of need (we now beginning to resemble a chemist shop ourselves!!).  Then we went and got the new lawnmower and a couple of hours later the first mow of the year was completed and so much easier with my new 'lite' model.Managed about half hour of weeding too.Today is cloudy and drizzly but apparently we can expect improvement and good temperatures ahead so at last I can get my fresh air by enjoying time in the garden again(and hubby can watch the labourer.)  Hoping to get him out again today (he says he will get to the supermarket later so I have been to the launderette and done the ironing (yuk) and he has just come down for breakfast so onwards and upwards!!)

    Have read in the local paper that we have a 3 day French Market  in the town where I work (typical when I am not working!!) so may take a trip in tomorrow. To make your mouth water they usually have a 'nut' stall but worse still (for Ann) they have a beautiful cake stall and then.....................'cheeses' (thinking about it perhaps I should avoid it altogether).

    Hope everyone has a peaceful and sunny weekend.  Hugs to all  Jules x

  • Can I come with you Jules, I used to love those french markets when we lived in Hampshire.

    hugs

    Annabel. xx