Hi Joanne

Your conflicting feelings of not wanting to let your dad go but not wanting him to suffer will be familiar to many on this site whose loved ones are ill. I hope others will be along shortly to offer you some support and that you get some comfort from coming here to talk at this difficult time.

Best wishes to you and your family.

Jane

hi joanne

               sorry to hear about your dad. i can understand what you are saying. i lost my mum 11 months ago to lung cancer. its not nice to see them suffer. but we always want them to be with us. if i can help in any way i will. you will find the strenth to get through this. i dont no where it comes from but trust me you will find it.

  love claire xxx

Joanne my thoughts are with you, my dad has lung cancer stage 4 and his spread to his lymph nodes and ribs, we have not asked how long he has as at the moment he is not to bad, I know this is going to change probably sooner rather than later. He is starting radiotherapy on Monday to help his pain, and stop it spreading to his spine, like you I'm devastated and when I am with him I'm being so strong but the minute I get in my car to drive home im crying my eyes out. Mum was also diagnosed with breast cancer 3 weeks ago so I'm really struggling and so is my mum. It's just heartbreaking and my thoughts go out to you. I'm the only girl and a daddies girl I think my dad would be like yours and once you told him you love him and he says the same I know my dad would not want to hear it over and over again, as it must be heartbreaking from him too knowing that they are leaving their lovely family, thinking of you xxxxxx

thankyou for your kindness when you too are going thru so much yourselves it is a comfort to hear from other people who are going thru the same situation as i am because you wonder if your normal with all these mixed emotions going on in your head sometimes you just want to get up and run away but then i think my dad probably does aswell so i know we will keep our dad home aslong as we can and look after him just as he has looked after me all my life x

So sorry to hear your news. I think it is sometimes worse watching someone you love so much suffer than to deal with your own suffering. Really feel for and thinking of you and your family having to go through this terrible time.

My dad died 12 years ago of prostate cancer and suffered a lot. From this distance I would say that, although it is so painful that sometimes you want to run away (and sometimes you may need to get away for a while) the fact that you are doing everything you know how to do for your dad will stay with you and help you later. Now I have cancer myself I understand why my dad sometimes found it hard to be with us. Some days there is nothing I want more than to be with my children. On other days it is too painful to think about being parted from them, or I worry about what will happen to them. There isn't a right way to do this, it is just **** hard. What your dad wants will probably be different from day to day. If you can, just encourage him to be honest about what helps or what doesn't at a particular time, and try to go with it. Short visits, where you can hold on to some of your own anxiety for a little while, may be easier than long ones. Don't worry about there being nothing to say. As my friend said, when it comes to something like this, who's got the script?

Sending virtual hugs,

Kate

well its 2 months nearly that we found out dad had cancer and he is still here love him he is such a fighter i love him so much and i know he is only here because he loves us too, he cried the other day proper broke down and said he dont want to die ive never seen him cry before my dad has been the one i cry on.  he is so weak now i bathed him this morning and thought he was going to die on me he was so out of breath and in pain so more morphine taken 20 mins ater ive got him in the wheel chair down to the bookmakers and hes my dad again enjoying having a bet forgetting hes dying then we get back home sausage sandwich cup of tea then hes asleep again for hours and hours and i remember he is dying . people who have cancer are so brave and so strong and they make people around them stronger too  kate your words have made me stronger because you have been thru what im going thru and much more i hope they can help you and survive this horrible disease

virtual hugs back

jo xxx

Hi Joanne, I'm so sorry you are having such a tough time but glad to hear your dad is still with us. It's very difficult when you are given a prognosis. When we were given my mums prognosis in jan, I dwelled on it but then remembered every person is an individual and not a statistic. I tell myself this every time I start to worry and panic. it's still tough.. Keep going lovely. Xx

Jo you are doing great, your dad sounds just like mine he loves going to the bookies and as long as he is still going I am full of hope, he has had 5 treatments of Radiotherapy now another 7 to go but today we got told he has a chest infection and I am just so worried as he is still in so much pain.  They have now given him patches along with his other medication and I really hope this gives him some relief...  It's just awfull and your full of mixed emotions some days I just cry and can;t stop and other days I am fine, well as fine as I can be. My mum says my dad has been crying because like your dad my dad wants to live not die and it;s just heartbreaking.. My thoughts are with you xxx  Like you I have found this web site fantastic people are so supportive and I honestly don;t know where I would be without it... XX Everyone is just so kind and understanding...

Hello Claire, I've just read your post to Joanne, re finding the strength to cope with her Dad dying, and it has helped me enormously, thank you. I'm in a similar position, watching my very precious Dad fade away, but tonight, you've helped me, and I know both he and I will sleep tonight. Thank you again, god bless.

Hi Joanne I just wanted to find out how you are getting on and how is your dad. My dad has now finished his radiotherapy and we now need to wait for a month before we see it it has helped. He has been doing okay, they are finally getting his pain under control which gives him a relief and can now even do some things.  Sometimes when i see him I need to remind myself that he is dying of cancer and then all the pain comes flooding back.  But I just wanted to check that your okay and hope your dad is okay...  Thinking of you...  Ger  xxx