Pancreatic cancer

I cannot cope with all the emotions of caring with my husband .I try to remain brave but sometimes I want to hide away and cry all night . He was diagnosed in May and from then it’s been an emotional rollercoaster We had our hopes destroyed when the said it could not be operated on It was in his bile duct and now spread to small nodules into he lining of his stomach .ZIm so scared as the fulfurinox chemo didn’t work and now the gemcap ist cycle has really been awful . Has anybody had this problem