Hi cherisnuts65, 

This is truly heartbreaking Cheryl and I just wanted to say that our thoughts are with you during this terribly difficult time. You must feel so exhausted too and I hope that having a carer coming in 3 times a day will be helpful and will allow you to get some rest and to breathe a little as it's so important when looking after a loved one with cancer that you also take time to take care of yourself. 

Poor you you are having to deal with a lot and it's completely normal that you are finding it all a bit overwhelming. It's also a bit of a stressful time for you as you might find yourself in a difficult housing situation at a time when you are feeling very sad and vulnerable. I think it might be worth contacting your local Citizens Advice who might have some good suggestions for you - they have a section on their website on housing you might be interested in having a look at. 

I would also recommend you try and reschedule the colonoscopy as soon as possible - it's very nice of you to want to prioritise your mum at the moment but your health also comes first. Perhaps you could make sure for example that your sister or someone you trust is with your mum during the time of your colonoscopy appointment. I completely understand though that the thought of having a colonoscopy at the moment is creating even more stress for you that you feel you don't need but it's well worth having the test whenever you feel the time is right but doing it will mean you can also move on from the anxiety your own health issues might be causing and get some definite answers. 

This is a really tough time for you and I just wanted you to know you are not alone and I will now let our members who may have found themselves in a similar place come and say hello and share their own stories and experiences with you. 

Best wishes, 

Lucie, Cancer Chat Moderator