Scared daughter who's dad is at end of life care

Hi all, 

For the last two years my dad has been battling bladder cancer. For context we are very close, I am 25, he is only 51. 

He has been through chemo, radio, a trial treatment at a specialist cancer hospital in London and nothing has worked, therefore he has now been taken off the trial and all of his cancer treatment has come to an end. There is nothing else that can be done for him. 

His diagnosis is metastatic stage 4 bladder cancer, currently it has spread to several lymph nodes too. 

We have been told by doctors that he is looking at 4-6 months left to live, which is a complete shock to us because last month everything was stable, but the tumour has recently grown at a rapid rate. 

I don't really know what I am looking for from joining this forum, I guess if there are any miracle stories out there where I can cling onto some hope, or do I need to come to reality with the fact this is actually happening and come to terms with it all. 

Thank you for taking the time to read. 

  • Hi  there and first of all, may I say how sorry I am for you and your family and what you are going through.   Yes, there ARE miracle stories for sure.  A Man I knew was given 'several months'  to live and he ended up living another 14 years.   There is always hope where there is life, that's what I believe.  That miracle that we are all hoping for could come tomorrow...........some brilliant Doctor somewhere in the world MIGHT finally have the cure for this monster called 'Cancer'.  Until then we can only hope and pray.  There's nothing wrong in clinging to hope and  often it is what gets us through our ordeal..........the hope that someone, somewhere will find the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow, and for cancer sufferers and their loved ones, that pot of gold is the 'Cure'.  Personally, as someone who nursed her Mother through cancer till the end, I would say that in YOUR shoes, I would start  facing the reality of the situation and prepare for the inevitable.  Please forgive me if that sounds harsh and awful, but I am guessing that you do not want any sugar-coating do you? I think that you would rather have the raw truth, and there it is.  May I say one thing that is VERY important?  Tell your Dad how much you love him, if you have not already done so, because if you don't, you will regret it afterwards.  In fact, say ALL of the things that you need to say to him.  You will not get another chance to do so.  Once again, so sorry for what is happening to you and your family.  Good luck going forward, and take one step at a time, xxx    

  • Thank you very much for taking the time to respond. I am sorry to hear about your mum, that must have been an awful thing to go through. I do have continuous hope but I worry I am protecting myself too much, I don't want it to be such a huge shock when it does happen (more than it already will). I definitely do not want to be sugar coated, I think it's very important for me to be realistic. I suppose I don't want to get too caught up on the timings, but now it has been mentioned it terrifies me and I would have rather have not know. We have been told all sorts of things by all different doctors, so I am unsure what to believe. I suppose the main thing, as you say is just being there for him and telling him how much I love him. My wedding is taking place in the summer of next year and it breaks my heart thinking about my dad not being here for that, so I guess I am trying to ignore the timings side of things, but I also don't want to take the time we do have left for granted thinking everything will be okay again. 

    Thank you very much, your supportive words mean the world to me xxx