I found out last week that my grandfather (who has been like a father to me) has been given 3-4 months left to live. I’m struggling on finding a way to put this, but every time I think about it I get an overwhelming sense of loss and sadness, even though he’s not gone yet. I think what makes it hard is the fact that he lives too far for me to see him as often as i would like, so i feel like i’m missing things and wasting time. 

He has metastasised bowel cancer, and we found out esrly january. He had done 2 rounds of chemo, but he has had to stop as he was just getting infections all the time and having to go to hospital. It was hard hearing about the fact he isn’t able to have more treatment.. I’m really scared about losing him. I talk to him about everything and I think what upsets me the most, is that I will no longer be able to share my achievements with him, or simply chat to him about his interests. I feel immense sadness thinking about the fact that he can’t continue with his interests when he’s not here, i don’t know if that sounds silly..

Its my first time posting to something this, so i’m not really sure how it goes, but i was wondering if anybody has any advice on how to cope for these upcoming months. (I also have important exams in a month so everything seems extra stressful)