My best friend and soul mate I have lived with for 20 years has been diagnosed with lung cancer and brain lesions. He is waiting for his PET Scan results to find out more and his treatment options. I feel selfish for being scared and emotional. I don't know what I'd do without him. It's the very beginning of his journey and I'm managing to care for him, but I also work. I am on sick currently but work will expect me to return at some point. He has no one else and I don't know what to do and feel so alone. One day life is fine, the next your whole world is rocked and nothing is the same anymore. I hope I can find some strength to support him through the next few weeks of oncology appointments, help him with cooking meals, help him to walk, get washed and dressed, take meds and drive him to his appointments. I feel very alone.