Hi everyone, I am new to this chat but, am struggling and didn't know what else to do.  I am an only child (although I am 44!) with no partner, children of my own or, any nearby family.  It is just Mum and I.  Mum was diagnosed last June with stage 4 liver cancer - originally endometrial cancer which has spread to her liver.  The path we are on is really tough - the last 6 months being a blur of emergencies, hospital admissions and appointments.  She is currently on a 3rd line treatment - pembrolizumab and levatinib (immunotherapy) as not suitable for liver resection and chemotherapy unsuccessful however, the side effects are becoming an issue and as a result, she had a TIA at the weekend.  Mum has lots of professional help however, I am only1 person and her physical and mental health are becoming nearly impossible for me to manage.  I have a full-time job which I have taken time off from but had to return as I need to pay my bills.  I have pre-existing depression and OCD which I have managed really well for most of my life however, they are back with a vengeance at the moment (understandably).  People keep telling me I am doing a great job and I know that I am BUT, it doesn't stop this being the most difficult thing I have ever gone through.  My resilience was low already as I lost my Dad to Parkinson's and Dementia during COVID.  My Mum has never taken much responsibility for herself and has always been very reliant on me but, it is now at the point where it is unbearable and I am starting to feel that I am being destroyed.  She is also emotionally abusive and has been my entire life.  However, I stay because she has no one else and I am so sorry for how she is feeling.  The idea of carrying on with this constant cycle of shock-anxiety-illness is becoming too much for me to handle.  Please do not think me selfish - I just feel overwhelmed and tired.  Doing this alone is so hard and I feel despair and no way out.  I guess I would feel better if someone just told me that they are in the same situation as me?  Lots of people keep telling me they feel sorry for me because I have no one to go home to or help with Mum to give me a break.  This is making me feel worse - I am frightened and look to the future thinking that I've spent all this time caring for Mum and Dad that there's no one going to be there to care for me.  I used Carer's Support and my GP etc. however, it doesn't change the situation.  I do not know what to do.