He was diagnosed in July with inoperable oesophageal cancer, so he is palliative,T3 N3 M1 it had spread to 2 nodes near stomach that’s why they won’t operate,  he had 5 rounds of capox 3rd 4th and 5th iv reduced to 80% because of awful neuropathy, 6th round cancelled as he developed multiple clots in both lungs, he’s loosing weight as the difficulty of swallowing has returned and he says it’s painful now as well, he has his end of treatment scan on the 23rd and we are seeing consultant on the 31st, I’m absolutely dreading this as I just know it’s going to be bad news he’s lost another stone since finishing chemo, pushes himself to eat but not enough, I’m watching him waste away and it’s heartbreaking, this is what I recently have seen on a letter to his dr about chemo 

(Active) Stage IVB, T3, N3, M1 G3 

so it looks like it’s gone up a stage but I don’t know what G3 mean, I’m just so scared he don’t say much but we haven’t even touched on dieing I don’t know how to approach this with him, the thought of loosing him is now so real. He’s up and about and still doing things takes the dog out twice a day, we wanted at least a few months to go away when he finished chemo but now I’m doubtful we will even get away, I’m just really scared of what the consultant is going to say, thank you for letting me sound this out x