Struggling with my emotions and not sure how I feel - mum has stage 4 cancer

Hi,

I’ve been taking my mum to her chemo, she has stage 4 cancer, she is extremely positive, but I don’t even know what I’m feeling, overwhelmed completely, anyone else feel like they don’t know how they feel?

  • It’s perfectly normal, seems like you’re on autopilot which is what happened to me when my dad was diagnosed with stage 4 glioblastoma earlier this year. I’m so sorry you’re all going through this. It’s not easy. 

  • Yes, exactly this- my mum is also stage 4 and just started chemo. Trying to be positive. Day by day, week by week, but the future has been taken away. 

  • Yea it’s all feels very strange, we are all staying as positive as we can. My mum is incredibly brave and strong, it’s just her nature and is coping so so well, but when I’m not with her I feel fine one minute, overwhelmed the next, it’s such a strange feeling. Saying bye hits so differently now in just everyday life. Thank you for your replies xx

  • It hits you more when you’re alone as you have more time to think. It’s crazy how your lives can be upended in such a short space of time…one minute everything is fine and the next you have you’re having to say goodbye. It’s awful.

    Sending you lots of strength and support 

  • This really resonates with me - we have gone from my dad been a little tired and low energy - say over the last month or so, to rapid weight loss, and a pain in his chests that took him to A&E last week to advanced lung cancer diagnosis (it's everywhere - lymph, bone, liver...) - biopsy this Friday coming and then we will know palatine care options. It is awful. 
    I am so sorry to hear your dad was diagnosed with stage 4 glioblastoma. For everyone supporting loved ones through this my heart breaks for you all. 

    Like everyone trying to be strong, and taking my lead from my very pragmatic, positive dad ️

     

  • It’s a cruel, cruel disease for everyone. Mentally I find it hard to stay positive but, what I’ve been trying to do is make my Mums life more enjoyable with the little things. Every chemo session I pick her up and buy her a different bunch of flowers, have her favourite coffee and play her favourite music on the journey across, playing different music. I just try and make every moment spent together enjoyable with the things I know she enjoys and every little surprise brings a smile to her face. I’ve two young child who I just can’t bring myself to tell yet, they are so, so close, but in time we will. Sending my love and thoughts to you all

  • Thank you, it’s soo sad. One minute he’s full of life, happy, joking then our world just got turned upside down in March. Had a biopsy in April to which we were told he was terminal. He sadly lost his battle in July and we’ve never felt so broken. Throughout the whole thing he was still positive albeit frustrated he couldn’t walk, do things for himself but we at least got some extra time with him and made some good memories. 

    Sending you positive thoughts for your dad’s biopsy. 

  • Hello, 

    My mum was diagnosed with stage 4 mastatatic breast cancer in march which had spread, im still struggling now with my emotions. I have good days and bad days! I have also been struggling with my own anxiety through it all too! My mum has recently finished her 6 month chemo and now we wait to see what the next plan of action is! 

    Sorry your all going through it too!

  • I am so sorry to hear your dads journey and yours as a family, it sounds like you've made the most of the time together, making memories and taking the lead from dad to be positive. 
    thank you re biopsy, I will also try to take the lead from my dad, and remain positive.