My dad was diagnosed with stage 4 asbestos related lung cancer 4 and a half years ago. He had treatment to slow the spread but the last couple of months he's gone downhill. I live 40 mins away from him and only see him once a week. I cook and clean for him whilst I'm there but work the rest of the time. He's recently been discharged from the hospital, they don't want to put him through any more scans (he was having them every 3 months) and after a gp visit today, he's been referred to macmillan and put on a liquid diet. I feel so alone as I'm watching him slowly fade away and he's on his own most of the week. I can't afford to stop working to care for him. I do what I can when I can but it's so hard trying to carry on as normal with my own family and commitments. Noone sees what I'm like when they have gone to bed, or during the day because I put on the brave face. They all think I'm coping but I'm not. I'm scared and I'm alone inside.