My husband, got diagnosed with oesophageal cancer last week after an endoscopy. He had problems swallowing for a while and whilst i am grateful for the endoscopy doctor tell us there and then, we were in state of shock, especially when he said things like "established" and "quite large."
Things moved quick and we had the CT scan on Thursday last week and we are just playing the waiting game now. We were given cards for the team but didn't want to ring on Friday, if we don't hear anything by Tuesday lunchtime we will chase, but we are scared and I feel very very alone. I've spoken to MacMillian and had a good cry done the phone with them.
We have both jumped to worse case scenario, which I know isn't helpful and I am trying to be "the strong one" when inside I am falling apart. 34 years is a long time to be together (particularly for 2 guys) and as I keep saying to him, battling to keep the tears back, "our story isn't finished yet"
Friend are saying the right thing by text, but unfortunately they don't translate into action, when I think about how I was there or them at various points in their lives....but now the boot is on the other foot....it hurts. I've had to limit social media, at looking at people being happy makes me resentful. (which it shouldn't)
There are people worse off than me and ultimately this isn't about me, it about him.
Do these feelings of loneliness, confusion and sadness pass, or any tips on how to manage them.
