My beautiful wife was diagnosed with renal cancer and had a radical nephrectomy of her left kidney 4 years ago. After regular scans, all seemed to be going to plan. Then boom, a metastasis to her right adrenal gland 6 months ago. Radical removal followed 3 months later. It might have been sooner had the doctors not been on strike.
4 months ago after tasting blood, a CT revealed a nodule in her right lung.
To be honest, I'm not sure how she keeps going.
Her physical health has suffered, but her mental health has taken a battering and continues to do so whilst waiting for another round of scans to see if the nodule has spread anywhere in the lungs.
Understandably, she is worried, stressed, angry etc.
But recently that anger seems to be aimed at me as if she somehow subconsciously is blaming me. Now I know she wouldn't do that, like I say, she is a beautiful person on the inside too, but recently, I've become stressed myself with everything going on with her, with my job, with a protracted house sale and now I feel guilty for wanting it all just to go away and to have a day to myself.
Is that selfish of me to feel that way? Also, I sometimes feel I can't say anything about my own health, which is not great, because I don't want to worry her.
I just don't know what to do any more.
