My mum was recently diagnosed with Stage 4 cancer, she's had numerous tests and a referral has finally gone in to the Oncologist so hopefully we'll have that appointment soon so we know what treatment will look like and when it will start. 

This year has been an emotional roller coaster for me already, then when this diagnosis came about, I felt like my world had just shattered. I've been as proactive as I possibly can be as it's such a helpless feeling at times, but felt I was doing pretty well for my mums benefit. She's been amazing with it so far, however has naturally experienced some anxiety recently and I've sourced factual information to try and ease that and anything else I can think of, but I feel like she's pushing me away a little at the minute. I'm feeling so deflated and alone tonight through it all. My mums had so many people visiting this week, and I feel like I'm not getting any support from people in my life - which I then feel so selfish for thinking as I'm not the one with cancer, but just feel so alone in all of this. I've been exhausted with it all as I felt like I effectively became a carer overnight, alongside working full time. People in my life will text to ask how I am and I'll express how I'm struggling, and they'll tell me to ask if there's anything they can do, but I haven't got the mental capacity to think of anything to help me as my mind is predominantly on my mum and what I can do to help her. 

Does anyone know of any online or national face to face carer support I can look into? I've started counselling through work which I'm hoping will help, but I need some connection in my life right now with people who understand what this new way of life is like.