I'm so sorry to hear how you are feeling. I think the nights are the worst, the quiet and stillness can be quite overwhelming which is why it's so great to have this forum. Please remember, you have all of us here to talk to, you are not alone. I find it helps to get your thoughts out there and ease that churning pit of worry and anxiety in your stomach. You might wish to encourage your husband to join something similar, it might help to speak to people other than loved ones. Be kind to yourself, take time to be outside in the fresh air if you are able to. You could try a guided sleep meditation, not as daft as it sounds! There are so many different ones available on YouTube, to help with anxiety and help you relax and get some much needed restorative sleep. I will leave you for now but you can come back and chat whenever you wish.