So  2010 i remarried. He was amazing we only had 4 months married as he passed away from lung cancer. We knew it would happen but thought we had a bit more time. I cared for him at home till the very end and as mad as it sounds it really was beautiful just him and I.

any way here i am 13 years later and i have met someone its very strange as he is very very similar.......handsome caring quiet and loving. I was very reluctant to get involved but did!!!

and here i am again he has just been diagnosed with myeloma! but he is already terminally ill with ideopathic pulmonery lung fibrosis!!!

i feel selfish and cant help but think why me? And then i look at him and think how he has changed bless him he cant work any more and he hates that. he hates me having to do so much for him. he was told only option was a lung transplant we agreed and then they found signs of spinal cancer so thats not a choice any more. Tomorrow hospital again i have lots of questions. hoping they can answer them! one being what stage is he at. Any one dealing with myeloma?? would really like to hear how it affects you do you take medication/ have chemo??? never heard of this until last week. thanks to all for reading. x