I living in different country then my mother, I left 13 years ago as I wanted to start a new life. My mother is living with my dad, she was recently admitted to the hospital where the doctors discover that she have pancreatic cancer with metastasis on the liver. When I heard news a broke down and cry and decided to travel to my home country. I thought I can look after her as best a could, but she turned to be more abusive then before towards me and my dad ( she was always like that but the illness tripled it). My dad is sleeping poorly and said he won't know what to do without me as I'm keeping him sane. I can't stay long and eventually I need to go back. This situation is taking emotional tool on me. My mother is refusing psychological intervention or help through the antidepressants. She is picking small things such a ham which my dad bought doesn't have 90 percent of meat only 82 percent etc. and she expecting that we will jump around her when she feels like it despite she can do lots of things for herself. She refusing to go out and she spending her days going from one room to another staying in pyjama day and night .It's exhausting, my dad only wish now she is taken to hospital and stay there to give him respite as she has been like this for several months and it's not the end yet. We try our best for her but she just treat us as her servants. In one hand I wish she is rather death on the other hand she is my mother and if I leave I might not see her again alive, but what's left from her is tragic.
