My mam was told in January after surgery she was free from colon cancer but in April she was diagnosed with cancer in her lungs and liver. I’m so angry at everyone…doctors who *** up and had the god to ask her if she blamed him…a doctor who told me it had gotten worse and I had to tell her like why I’m 21 and having to do that broke me in so many pieces. Mom just so angry and I feel like I’m breaking apart but I have to stay strong for my siblings because they need me right now. 
God I thought this time wouldn’t be as bad because I didn’t have to tell everyone my dad did but it’s not. The first cancer diagnosis I was told by my dad and had to tell my younger sibling and older sisters…I thought that would be the worst thing that I would ever have to do but watching my mam in hospital telling me she doesn’t want to do it was it broke me that she is in so much pain. But it also shows me how strong she is she wants to live to see us grow.

God I don’t know what to feel anymore…I would do anything to trade places with her in a heartbeat. I can’t loose her!!