Hi so my mum has had vulva cancer for 16 years . 
she had an operation and went into remission . It has come back 3 more times since and she has

had treatment . She hasn't been feeling well since last October but wouldn't go to the doctors which is hard anyway to get an appointment . Me and my dad pushed her to go . She had blood taken we where told bloods all clear then she went for a scan which where also all clear . She was still in a lot of pain sitting down and also bleeding a lot . The doctor booked her to see a someone else and then we where told stage 4 and they can't do anything now . 
my world feels

like it has fallan apart I moved back home to help 8 years ago . She is my world and I'm struggling watching her go down hill everyday . She has stopped eating and lost so much weight . Since the kings coronation she is now in bed and can't move she has no energy and her legs now won't support her . She is on a lot of morphine to help her . So she is sleeping a lot now . She keeps saying she is ready to go and she has lived her life . 
I'm finding it hard to watch her dissolve . I'm still working full time as I feel I will just be an emotional

wreak all the time . I have really good friends who check on me and family . But I want to be strong also for my dad . Life really sucks when you watch someone battle cancer for so long .