This is my first time posting. My mum 6 months ago was rushed to hospital with a bowel obstruction which within hours turned into colorectial resection and being told she had cancer. The 9 hours of surgery were so hard for me to cope with I kept saying I needed to be sedated, usually I'm a very strong charecter but this was so hard to cope with. Fast forward 4 months my mum was told after a CT scan that her cancer had spread to her penitoreum, liver and ovary. She had her first load of chemo last week and is due a meeting with oncologist this week to give her results of her pet scan. I'm 33 years old and have always been very close with my mum. The last few days she's dropped into depression which is really hard to hear. She's looked into how serious her cancer is. I'm trying to be strong but it's very overwhelming. I have a family of my own, son and my home is very much the heart of the family where they all come for support or just a chat. I keep talking positively to my mum but I'm struggling internally. I don't really know what I'm trying to get out of me posting this. A rant maybe, or somewhere to get some support? Im not sure. Advice perhaps. Has anyone been through a similar sittuation? I posted a few times on the Facebook support pages but never got much response but sad face emoticons which didn't fill me with much joy. 
thank you for reading this and any advice you can give me. Not sure where to turn to.