Hi all. It's been 3 years since I last posted on here. I'm 19 now and thought I'd just update the most recent things going on with my dad. Mid this year, my dad was acting strange and was showing symptoms of something sinister. He would throw up all the food he ate and skin was turning yellow, it just got worse as the months went on and even we started to fear the worst. He went for his regularly bloods, nothing come up but one day we got an urgent call saying that something is wrong with his liver, I don't think my family were shocked since we all knew something was happening but there was still some kind of indenial. 
 

turns out the cancer that started in his bowels has spread to his liver and has become stage 4. At this point they cannot stop it, my dads not doing chemo since last time it made him very sick and the fact that it would only add an extra 4 months of life to his already low life expectancy of 3 - 6 months. That's it. That's all the time I've got left with him. 
 

Im trying so hard to spend as much time with him as I can but the household has become so unbearable and my mum is trying to manage being a carer and a full time worker at the same time so she's always angry, my parents fight a lot too. My mental health is meh, I think it hasn't hit me yet of the reality and once it does, I will probably be very angry and upset. I can feel myself as time goes on, it's starting to become more real, the fact he's bedridden a lot and how his body has sunken into itself. 
 

This is scary.