I'm 24 and I've recently found out my father has been diagnosed with lung cancer, that has also spread to his liver. He's been told that they expect he has 12 to 18 months to live. 

It's been 7 months since they originally spotted a shadow on his lung. And at the time of writing, he still hasn't received any treatment for his cancer. 

He starts treatment next month, at which point it'll be almost 8 months since they originally found the shadow. The process from diagnosis to treatment seems to have been incredibly slow, and I can't help but feel if things had have been dealt with in a quicker fashion, that he may have had a much higher chance of living longer.

The whole situation feels completely overwhelming.

I'm an omly child and my mother left when I was 15 and moved 150 miles away, so I have no family nearby.

I'm afraid of losing my father, sooner than I'd have ever hoped... But I'm more fearful that he's going to die in pain and suffer.

He's currently living in a house with no central heating, that is cold and damp, and I feel as if he has little to no support. He's paid taxes his entire life and now he's unable to work, he's getting no support whatsoever.

Im concerned that living in a cold house that's damp, from no central heating, is going to make his illness progress even faster and cause potentially more complications.

Im fearful of what to expect in the coming months.

And the hardest thing to wrap my head around, is that he has such a bad condition. Because at this point in time over than a persistent cough, coughing up rust coloured mucus on occasion and a slight shortness of breath, he otherwise seems completely healty, going about day to day life as normal...

Not even sure what I'm typing this for, or what answers I'm hoping for if I'm honest. 

Im worried for his wellbeing and how he's doing mentally aswell. 

Just feels like I'm in a nightmare that I won't wake up from... But there you go.

That's just life I suppose...