Thank you so much to everyone on here who have recently helped me come to terms with some difficult issues. Special thanks to [@Dor06] , [@Billygoatt] and [@Chriss] . I am moving towards acceptance. Sometimes we take the best options when no options are really good options. Sometimes there is a need to take drugs that will give us cancer both to cure cancer and other life-threatening illness. No one chooses to get cancer but people do choose the best options available at any given time. It is hard when medication has to be taken that will cause other significant problems, shorten life even. Sometimes there are no good options. But less good options are better than no options and there is gratitude for every day. Thanks to all who have helped me on here I am better placed to face the future. I have also finally accepted a death I could not previously accept. Dor06 has helped me unblock memories which "prove", I think, the facts. I am so very, very grateful to you all. Thank you so much. Thank you for allowing me to articulate my fears, thank you for being patient with me. Thank you for giving me hope and courage. Thank you for giving me back a smile. I have hope for the future. It isn't an easy future that lies ahead, but thanks to the wonderful people on this site, it feels more bearable. Love Rose xx
