Mum was diagnosed with Lung and Liver Cancer in June of this year........ since she was diagnosed shes deteriorated quite badly, lack of drinking and eating and its hitting the family hard. There was some hope with Chemo that this would offer some quality of life and reduce Mums symptons, which we felt it had after the first treatment a few weeks ago, however Mum has chosen not to continue it.. Im feeling all sorts of emotions at the moment. Im angry that she doesnt want to stay with her family for longer and conflicted as i dont want her to suffer.

Today was supposed to be her pre treatment bloodtest for the 2nd round and we are finding it so hard to make the call that she is not going.. it feels like this is the end of the road and we dont want to make the call.. then what if she changes her mind !! it will be too late and that will be even harder to deal with. We have tried eveything, sitting down with her and explaining that the reason she felt so poorly was the lack of food and drink and whilst the chemo can make you feel poorly, it gave us all some hope that we have her for longer. 

I know so many people are going through this with loved ones.. just dont know where to turn or what to do. I feel like im numb, in a daze and cant concentrate knowing that the treatment could mean months or longer with Mum being around instead of weeks without it