5 weeks ago my dad went into hospital coz he was ill found out he had a hole in his stomach which then caused septis . We didn't think he would make it through surgery so prepared for that we knew it was a high chance cancer caused the hole but never expected that there would be nothing they could do so they sent home to be with us on Pallative care and has weeks to live . I have never felt pain in my body like this am struggling so much coz he is my best mate . I am just struggling so much I am used to seeing him all the time but I have 3 kids and he's with my brother and it's hard knowing he's dying and I can't spend every minute with him x