Hi all,

Im not sure where to turn at the moment so I found myself here. Just got off the phone with my mum who was hospitalised a few days ago with internal bleeding, after running some tests she was told today that she has cancer (bowel) and while initially didn't want to tell me she finally gave me a call and broke the bad news. 

Im honestly so scared for her, she's 75 and I'm 3000 miles away in the UK (she's from here as well but retired to Canada) and I don't know what to do. I just feel numb, I tried to keep my composure on the phone with her but the minute the call ended I totally broke down. I know it'll take time to set in but I'm panicking like do I move to Canada to be with her or just visit? Do I wait to see how bad it is or just drop everything and go. I just want to see her but at the same time she's telling me not to sacrifice my new job to go there for her. I know there's nothing I can really do but hope for the best at this point and try to make plans to get over there.