Hi, I was wondering if someone could help me a little bit please, my mum had lung cancer and it spread rapidly to her brain and she died 18 years ago to which left me alone as my dad hasn't been in my life ever, I now have 3 children who are my world and my now partner who I have been with for 16 years has bowel and bladder cancer.

I suffer with depression and social anxiety brought on by my partner being very negative all the time and also not treating me like a woman our sex life has always been terrible and by terrible I mean probably once a year, literally, he never kisses me and my children have commented on this also. Whenever I try to talk about his negativity he shouts at me that I'm backing him to a corner or he turns the whole thing back on to me, I have really tried to be there for him during this awful time for him but during I realised I wasn't living life and I don't want to die still being in this situation and a told him and as you can imagine it didn't go down well, at first he seemed ok but he was like a simmering pan just waiting to boil over I did tell him that I will be here for him and that we are best friends and I don't want that to change

i just don't know what to do I'm so confused and worried for my children as this negativity which has got worse since the diagnosis it's like we are walking on egg shells all the time he told our son that contrary to what he believes he's not going to die I mean who says this ! Am I being to awful to him please help me