I understand your frustration. I have never met my oncologist, she refuses to see me face to face. She said I chose this but I was in such a state of shock after diagnosis I dont remember.

When she phones she is very brusque and shows no empathy at all. Then she sends letters saying it was lovely to speak to you. This is just a standard template. I would advise you to speak to your specialist nurse if you have been given one.  You need answers.

I have thought of asking to change oncologist but have felt to ill to go through with it. Every letter she sends tells me cancer will return. She was also reluctant to treat me said would give benfit of doubt. Although the first consultant said tumour was not curable, but treatable.

I really hope you get the treatment you need.