Hello, I'm not sure what to write here as my head is just a total mess.

My dear mum was diagnosed with stage 4 Glioblastoma Multiforme yesterday. We was told it was inoperable and at best radiotherapy would give her a few months at best, without she has 3-6 months.

4 weeks ago my 74 year old mum who has ALWAYS lived a good, healthy, honest Christian life was doing things like cycling across Oxfordshire for charity and sponsored walks. She has never smoked, doesn't drink, would help anyone who needs it without battering an eyelid and as I mentioned was ridiculously active (nobody she met ever believed she was in her 70s)

Today she is a shell of her former self, she has got old all of a sudden yet she is still my mum as I know and love her.

How do I digest (as I look at her laughing, singing, breathing etc) accept that in a few months she will no longer be here?

My heart is truly broken, my world been turned upside down and I simply cannot handle the pain I am feeling.

We have no history of cancer at all, she is the first in our bloodline and it's just so unfair!

I have a lot to face over the coming week with palliative care being put in place, I will be her primary carer as I need to be aswell as want to be however I have no clue what the next few months will bring. Will she suffer, will she be in pain, as she has refused treatment will all her care be from home (as in the nurses will tend to her while she's in her own bed) or is a hospital inevitable.

I have so many questions but don't know where to start.

This isnt fare