I'm struggling my heart it breaking and I just need answers

Hi 

My father has been unwell and I have done all the right things taken his te doctors. The hospital etc

In a space of 3 month he has lost over 5 stone looking at him he's just a skeleton with skin and it's breaking my heart. 

They found a tumour in his throat and advised me to expect the worst... what does that mean....

So I originally took him due to two at least 8cm lunps in his neck and they have take biopsies. They also found the tumour in his throat and explained if it grew he would need a tracheotomy... 

Do he's had two biopsies mri scan and CT scan. So just awaiting results.

My dilemma is he continues to lose weight and now he's confused forgetting things and I am afraid to leave him.on his own. 

Deep down  I know he has cancer but I'm not sure what stage or whether he is terminal...

My heart is breaking because its a two week wait for all the results and honestly in 7 days he's got so worse I don't think he's going to be here. 

So although I know I my dad is dying I want him to be comfortable to be able to swallow water and not choke. I want him to be pain free he's half the man he was.

I can't get any help because he doesn't have a diagnosis and the pandemic is not helping.

Any advice is so acceptable and appreciated 

Jo

  • I'm so sorry to read what has happened to your father Jo.

    I really can tell from your post how difficult and painful this is for you but whatever happens, we are here for you and sending our support your way.

    If you're worried your father's health is deteriorating and feel medical advice may be needed, then do get in touch with the NHS on 111. Our team of cancer nurses are also available to talk things through on 0808 800 4040, Monday - Friday between 9a.m - 5p.m.

    I really do hope your father's results come through soon and you finally know what you're dealing with.

    Kind regards,

    Steph, Cancer Chat Moderator

  • Thanyou for tour reply

    Today I feel I have achieved a few things. 

    A GP home visit and he's now on morphine patches and oramorph. 

    And hospital have brought his results a week forward so only 1 more week to wait .

    It's been a difficult few week trying to care for him and not let him down. 

    Yeah my heart is breaking and I am struggling bit I'm always strong for him and hide my emotions x 

     

    Thank you for your reply roll on 1 week 

     

    Josie