I am not sure why I'm posting this, other than to know that there are others who are facing similar struggles and how you might have coped / be coping.

My dad was diagnosed with bowel cancer 2 years ago and has undergone several surgeries, but the cancer has since spread to his liver and lungs. We have just found out that he has about a month to live, which is heartbreaking. I have always been so close to my dad and can't bear the thought of losing him. I'm also 2 months away from giving birth to a little girl. I am devastated that my dad will likely never meet her and I am finding this all very difficult to process and can't seem to do or be able to focus on anything. I am also finding it incredibly difficult to get the motivation to work at all and feel like I should just finish up work now so that I can make the most of the final few weeks with my dad and just focus on being with the family and the pregnancy. But another part of me feels like work can be a healthy distraction.

My dad also doesn't know yet about his prognosis (the hospice will be telling him tonight) and he has always thought that he would be able to overcome the cancer, talking about the future and making plans for next year. I think this prognosis is going to hit him quite hard. I just hope he can process it and that we can make the most of the time that we have left together.