PS: How are they doing your second biopsies, do you know? Mine were stereotactic, under mammogram? Xx ️

Hey Mickey,

Im not too sure, nothing was said, so as far as I know, it will be like the first one. Needle core biopsy.

As much as Im trying my breast (oops sorry) lol!! BEST to keep and stay positive, I feel as if my lump has grown to the stage where I no longer have to press into my breast to feel it. Although it can't be seen with the eye, It's nearer the surface, so can be felt if I was to point you to its direction.

My surgeon says it won't spread by the time I have the 2nd biopsy and results, but that was before the set back I mentioned in my last post. It IS aggressive, so I can't see why it wouldn't. What do you think?

Also, I've been reading about CT a d MRI scans that others have had before their ops. No one has told me I may have one/both of these. They tell me all lymph nodes are clear, (could this be why Im not having any of these done)? If I do have to have them, it will set me back even further as results take time.

God loves a trier, believe me Mickey, I am trying to be Ms Positive Polly through this uncertain time.

Much love xx :love:

PS, hope you are well xx

Morning and happy Sunday, 

Ok, I guess they just say 'biopsies' and unless you get a letter confirmation, you probably won't know.  Anyway, has to be done to get to the point of your treatment plan, which is good. 
 

- I have to say that it's hard to resist when people keep telling me 'you got this' and I'm thinking 'no, I haven't, I'm just trying my breast - or in my case losing it'.... A sense of humour around this chaos is a must, I think. I'm not sure others outside this journey would get that though!

I have to admit that I try not to look at that breast now and I haven't felt it for months (probably since they out the first markers in'). Like you though, I'm convinced you can see it now, but I think it's probably 'just my imagination, running away with me' (won't get that song out of ny head now. Lol). It's funny how our mind plays tricks on us though, so please try not to worry about that, you're in good hands. As for the aggressive bit, Please don't worry, it won't grow that fast that it will make any difference to surgical decisions whilst you await the second biopsies. Honestly, if they were worried about that they would have acted in another treatment before surgery. Im over three months down the line now and my tumour is invasive and aggressive and Im still holding on til Tuesday when all of the cancer will finally be removed (fingers crossed) x

I asked about other scans at my second consultant apt (whilst awaiting the second biopsy results) as I was worried like you that there would be yet further delays.  I was told that the info from the second biopsies was all they needed to make a surgical decision to get me to surgery. So don't worry about that, I'm sure you're the same they know enough about your cancer and will know all they need to know after second biopsies to get you to surgery. I did have to have a CT scan to check my blood vessels because of my choice of surgery, but that didn't hold anything up at all. 
 

You're doing well 'Positive Polly'. 
 

much love Mickey xx ️

Hey Mickey,

Happy Sunday to you too:laugh:

You truly are inspirational!

Here I am, going into a paranoid meltdown, and along you come like a breeze on a very hot summer day, to cool things down (just when its needed).

For most of the time I am a strong minded person and nothing phases me. I have been good, laughing, joking and getting on with general things, including preps for Christmas, but suddenly all these questions came to mind, which needed some kind of clarity in any form, but I couldn't find them on the forum. I know I probably sound juvenile instead of a married adult with 5 (yes!! 5) beautiful daughters, and although they are supportive, they are extremely emotional about the whole situation. This resolutes in me being emotional, which only brings sadness over a delicate area that Im trying to control.

I was told by my sister only yesterday, that if anyone spoke to me over the phone/face to face, would never  believe I was 'sick'. I quickly corrected her by saying I wasn't sick, but I was a little broken and would soon be fixed. 

Your words are soothing and beyond kindness. I hope to share our journey and comparisons (if any) together. I believe everyone needs a Mickey they can call on.

Much love xx:love:

'Positive Polly' 

Btw, 

I remember your surgery is scheduled for 14th Dec.

I bet the day can't come quick enough to rid yourself of what I would call, a very unwanted guest!

I want to say although I know it seems like l'm so wrapped up with my demons, I haven't forgotten that you're going through it all as well. 

You are in my thoughts and prayers.

Much love xx:love:

P. Polly xx

Thank you, I'm trying to pack my suitcase to be brought into hospital on Day 2. I know I'll have so much on tomorrow (including a blue boob and urine) that if I don't do it now, I'll forget something very important. I go in to admissions in dressing gown and slippers, lol - she told me I could take pants if I wanted and later put them in my dressing gown pocket xx 

Thanks for the lovely messages and happy to stay in touch - really glad it's helping you. Wow 5 daughters, lots of emotion and hormones going on for you x 

love n hugs Mickey xx ️

Hello I.Love.life and I am sorry to hear that you are waiting for another biopsy to be done.

While I know it must be worrying do remember that even if it is getting bigger this still does not mean the cancer will spread and that your situation or outlook will change.  I also think when anyone are worried it could be all too easy to see the situation is worse when actually it isn't. 

CT scans and MRI's are usually done in early stage breast cancer for different reasons. For example they may be carried out if there is a concern that the cancer could have spread.  This concern might be because the patient has particular symptoms that might be caused by cancer being in another part of the body or if cancer was found in the lymph nodes. 

I hope next week goes well and that you will be okay. Please get back to us if you need any more information or support.  You may find it helpful to talk things through with one of the nurses on our helpline.  The number to call is Freephone 0808 800 4040 and the lines are open from 9am till 5pm Monday to Friday.

Take care,

Caroline 

Hi Mickey,

I don't expect you will see this post until you feel up to reading and replying, but all the best for your op.

Take care

Much love xx :love:

Hi Positive Polly, 

I did see your message before I left yesterday - thabk you for thinking of me, that's so kind. 

cant type much (sore arms)  so have 'cut and paste' sane jessagevto others. 

I was first in at 7 and had my Anaesthetic by 8 and so must have done op in less than 10

Hours .

I’ve tried to rest my eyes for ten mins in between my half hourly reconstructed Boobie checks (blood vessels are still working), blood pressure, temperature and finger Clip, which I guess is heart rate. 

I came round from anaesthetic really quickly, 6.40 I think I saw on clock when I first looked after coming round. They say most people don’t come round til after 9. Had a sore throat and croaky voice, but ok now. 

I had very little pain for ages, but now I have a little bit and on stupid skin reactions, worst one under left arm, so thank god I bought a little beanbag type red heart, stops my Skin rubbing. I’m on morphine, so all ok xxx 

Cafetter bag was a gorgeous Sea green at first, I’ve drunk lots of water (as directed) and so it’s lighter green now. 

Blood pressure has been a little low and so checked more often and more water I was told to drink.

My DVT socks are green with toes and I have contracting something on both one after the other  xx

Im ok, just very tired .

love n hugs Mickey xx ️

Hi Mickey,

Hope you're not in too much discomfort and can rest xx

You're through another stage of your recovery journey.....well done!!! I'm so, so pleased for you. I have an. even more positive mind now. 

Real hugs hurts atm, so......((((((BIG AIR HUGS))))) for you!!!

Speak soon

Much love xx :love:

Positive Polly xx