I have had abnormal cells in my cervix since my first smear, when I was 18. I am now 40. During my years I have had a lot of missed smears, dur to the fact I didn't realise how serious it could be and some because of fear because I was having to get all my smears yearly and I didn't want to go through that every year.  Around 12 years ago I went to the hospital to have the cells burned away. I got my next smear a year later, the results were fine and I thought that was it and for the first time I was told I could wait the normal 3 years till my next smear. Reading online that after the procedure things usually go back to normal. I started missing appointments because I have a bad memory and forget. I got a smear around 7 months  before the first lockdown. It was back to abnormal. I was told if my next one was abnormal then I would need to be referred to hospital again. They gave me an appointment 6 months down the line. That also came back abnormal. My referral to the hospital was put off because covid hit. I was told to go back in a year. I didn't because appointments were still off, so I thought what's the point. I will just be put off again. Had my last smear a couples of weeks ago. Still waiting on the results. About 2 months ago I found a small lump under my armpit. I searched it online and read it could be a cyst. So I didn't bother with it much. But around 2 weeks ago I found a second lump in the same armpit. Now I am starting to worry that I have been too laid back and the problem can be more serious. I have a doctors appointment which is 2 weeks away. I am now really worried and I can't stop worrying imagining the worst. Can anyone who has been in this situation help put my mind at rest. Thank you