My dad had prostate cancer and survived. It took me so long to get over the distress I went through trying to suppress my emotions from him. The reason I did this was my mum did not want anyone to get upset, stopped my dad crying when he first told me and said 'we are not going to cry, we are going to beat this ect..' I sort of went into a bubble of denial and we as a family stopped talking about it.
He had his prostate removed and has been clear every 6 months since.
Recently he told me that a scan for a intestine infection showed a shadow on his pelvis and the results were sent to his oncologist.
I am fit to burst. I feel selfish that I cant be scared and I want to be strong but I am so confused and need support.
