Hi all,
I didn't really know where to turn really, I have great friends abs family but sometimes I just think there sick of me as I do suffer badly with healthy anxiety. I also feel the drs just hate me when they see my name on ask my GP .
I don't know where to start really, I've always been a very health anxious person and I've tried so much councilloring but doesn't really help. All Stemmed after having my son who is now 7, horrible c sec but we got through it. I was wrongly diagnosed for 4 years with a BCC on my scalp with has literally topped me over the edge and made me how I am today. This was diagnosed and treated nov 2020. Thank god and surgery went well and all healed well. This has left me not trusting the NHS a which is so sad when you suffer with Heath anxiety. So basically I had my gallbladder removed 2015 which went fine as had lots of stomach issues prior. Since then my stomach hasn't been right, I have lots of US which so nothing. I suffer from psoriatic arthritis ( which I currently take methotrexate for and have done for the last 5-6years) psoriasis not bad but joints was. I have to have regular blood test for which check my FBC and liver. To cut a long storey the ref me back to gastro because I had bouts of diarrhoea stomach pain center of rib gage, bloated and feeling sick. Since 2019 I have endoscopy and CT scan and SehCat scan which picked up hiatus hernia and bile acid malabsorption.( HH I already knew of anyway as had previous endoscopy) I do have to wait my diet , especially with greasy foods due to no gallbladder and HH. Since jan this year I have a ache/pain on the right of my mid stomach going up to my liver region, around my back, and down to the lower abdomen and pelvis. The GP said it's the bile acid, which I don't think this causes pain. I have lots of blood test anyway and my GT a on my liver function is always high but stable. So referred me for another US. Liver shows fatty liver and they found a right ovary cyst. I mention that my stools have changed to soft, narrower and feels like my constipated but im not if makes sense as there soft when out. Sometimes I get an ache in my bum. I can go about 3-5times a day ( mainly watery and I force my self sometimes to check there no blood or what they look like) I havnt noticed a weight loss as such but the last yr- 6months I've been up and down like 8lbs . They have tested my stools and there all fine and a negative FIT test but I honestly think something is not right with my bowels. I begged to be referred for a colonoscopy but the GP Said bloods and FIT test are a very sensitive test and would pick something up. Which I'm not convinced, you can have bowel cancer without bleeding as I've read goggle ( which I know is the worse thing to do) I still have this pain right mid near belly button and sometimes feels heavy that side and pain in lower right back and down leg. (The GP said it's from the cyst on my ovary and the bile acid mal)
yesterday I went for my follow up of US for my cyst on ovary and it's gone. She said have you had your stomach and bowels checked. I told her the history and tests and she said they need to do a colonoscopy and I'll put on my report! Which it's freaking me out, I can't stop crying or concentrate as all I do is read bowel cancer storeys. I just feel I have got bowel cancer and something is there.
PS I am waiting for a gastro appointment which I am demanding a colonoscopy and new CT.
sorry to go on but needed to vent :( please no hate
thanks in advance
