I unable to make my mind up to have the bowel surgery or not. I have adhd, mental health and multiple personality as well as a big hospital phobia and they anesthetist give me nerve damage on my healing arm with the socket fracture. He was told not to put the cannula in that hand and he went and did it. He also give me a pre med when i told the nurse that came in place of him i wasn't having one. Im really distressed and tormented mentally emotionally physically and spiritually with it. The cancer team and gp as well as the cancer team psychologist knows all this. They aren't any support at all to me.