I went in to have a poly removed from my cervix. Then when i was there the gynaecologist said there was also something else on the vaginal wall. She asked if I wanted her to take it out.
I asked what the implications were. She just said that if she didn't, they would see it on my next pelvic exam and keep referring me back. But she didn't say what it was. She gave me local anaesthetic and then cut it out.
It was very very painful. Afterwards, I thought I was bleeding a lot, but it wasn't blood but fluid. Then I kept needing the toilet. I couldn't seem to empty my bladder because I kept having to go back to the toilet. sometimes 3 times in an hour.
I am now 6 days later still losing a lot of clear fluid that smells like urine. But I did go back the day after the appointment after being sent to urgent care by 111. I waited 7 hours and got to see a gynaecologist, but she said it would not be urine because I was not getting increased frequency. I told her that I was, but I don 't know if she was just not listening, or didn't hear. I was titred by then and alone with two doctors, as my husband had gone to try and buy us some food.
I am waking in the night desperate for the toilet having leaked a lot. And I have been putting tissue on top of pads, so I can tell. There is clearly some fluid and small bits of blood, but there is also so much fluid that smells like wee, that if I add folded tissue on top, it gets soaked through in less than an hour.
I am going out of my mind with anxiety. I am anxious about my impact on the environment by wearing pads, and it is awful feeling like I am wetting myself. They told me that I hadn't got a fistula or anything else 'google' told me it was, because it wouldn't happen that quickly. But couldn't the doctor have pierced a hole somewhere with the injection for the anaesthetic? Plus, some years back i went through IVF (unnsuccessful) and I had my bladder size extended.
I feel like no one believes me, and the doctors are not listening to my actual symptoms, and basing their assumptions on what is probably happening, and discounting things because I am not experiencing particular symptoms, but they are not listening to the fact that I AM experiencing the symptoms they are saying I am not experiencing.
I am suicidal. I don't want to live like this. No-one even said anything to me about this extra growth and this LLETZ procedure being a cancer test. I have never had anything show on a smear test. I don't understand what is happening. I just know that as soon as my bladder starts to fill, urine trickles out. And this was happening to some extent before the procedure but now it is much, much worse, and the volume is enormous. I feel frightened and like no-one will believe me.
What should I do? I am keeping a diary.
