Hello , 

37 year old male , last couple of months was n darkest point of my life , things started with having bleeding symptoms did fit test back negative …. And then few months later did another one back high at 200 with calprotectin at 287 …. No other symptoms no pain no constipation no diarrhea    eating well no loss weight , my blood normal , did ct scan back normal no major issue , i had colonoscopy through cancer pathway NHS , was all good just tiny polyp and 2 internal hemerroids … with good report , anyway after few days from my procedure i was happy all good , then start to pint point about the procedure , did they did good job ? … is the time of procedure was ok … did the endoscopist miss anything  or did he lie on report …. Did i do good prep my score was 9 but even i have doubt maybe they lie in report , … but i keep questioning everything … im totally at breakdown i want to be happy but same time keep thinking About what if ? just wanted to share my struggling with this fear , im crying all the time … cant handle it … esp i have 2 litle kids …. 
thanks in advance