Gone wrong

Could someone be truthful to me, had 1st stage breast cancer2000, my kids was young I opted for mastectomy with expander, after 5mths it went flat so they put implant in 2001, ,the implant was ordered to small, 2002 another implant, moved towards my armpit, 2003 I’m on my third implant. 2004 had both wrists done carpal tunnel, 2005 back in theatre I went mad I had a left drain in I went mad he had put a small implant to left Maxepexy 2006 expander back in right side. 2008 endrometrial ablation and went to see consultant breast cancer 2008, so  told he wasn’t there we will send you appointment. 2009 back to hosp I saw the other consultant who had been involved in my other surgery. The expander I had in was to small so still 2009 bigger expander, when I woke up I woke up in my bed, I tried to get up I was frightened confused couldn’t walk, I needed to get out but I had drips in my arm,I usually go home next day but my legs was wobbly still confused the day after that I left felt like I shouldn’t be there, I drank gallons of water couldn’t wee for 4 days, 2010 had expander out implant in I really couldn’t care anymore never spoke to anyone I had bad infection they left 3 stitches in got over that had to go back consultant said I had capsular contractor I had that all the time. I’ve still got that implant in I know it tighens up and stretches my vein and snaps, and he called me selfish I just walked away sat in church yard crying. This cuts my blood supply I don’t know what to do I haven’t done wrong, no friends loads of trouble please

  • Hello and thank you for posting,

    It sounds like you have had a difficult time with having different breast implants over the years.

    I am unsure what help or advice you need. As cancer information nurses I am afraid we cannot advise about implants as this is very specialised. You may have done this already but it might be helpful to speak with your GP about the symptoms you are currently experiencing. I wondered if they were aware of what you have been through and if they can refer you back to see a plastic surgeon.

    I am sorry I cannot be more helpful on this occasion but I hope you can get some help with this.

    Take care,

    Jemma

  • They are aware, they want me to go back to counselling they can’t be bothered to tell me the truth if the doctor tells me I have left ruptured implant it’s been like that a long time that was picked up on a cat scan so how can it not be see you in 5yrs I feel myself slipping again, and all I think about is my 2 dogs they won’t survive I don’t want anyone looking after them I Carnot cope with this?

  • Hello Lostlife

    I'm really sorry to hear about all that you've been through and how much you're struggling at the moment. It sounds like it's been a really difficult time for you. 

    In terms of the hospital and your concerns about the care that you've received, you might want to consider getting in touch with the hospital PALS team. It's part of their role to help resolve concerns when using the NHS. 

    It sounds from your post as if you might find it helpful to access some support for your mental health as well. You mention that your GP has spoken about counselling and this might be something to consider to help you come to terms with all that you've been through, alongside any other support that may be necessary.  Don't forget that the Samaritans are available 24/7 if you feel overwhelmed or want to talk with someone about how you're feeling. 

    I do hope that you can access the help and support you need Lostlife. 

    Best wishes, 
    Jenn
    Cancer Chat moderator 

  • Thank you Jenn, I’ve had lots of different psychiatrists then they would ask me what happened I was just repeating myself, then I was sent to hull to see Emma Lewis psychology after months of seeing her she said she couldn’t help me, at least she was truthful. Just lost it’s like waiting for a death sentence because of this capsular contracture, she said see you in 5yrs she knows this is wrong sorry Jenn, should of been 3yrs