I am sorry that you are worried about the side effects of the treatment for this type of blood disorder.
It might be worth posting on the 'living with cancer' section of this forum to hear from others in similar situations to you. Blood Cancer UK also has a forum that may help.
It is also good to talk to your specialist nurse if you have one, and maybe connect with others at your own unit who have had some of these treatments.
Take care, and I hope you get the information you need.
