I had my late effects acute lymphoblastic leukamia appointment yesterday..they said I have pernicious anaemia due to the chemo I had 50 years ago damaging my bowl..meaning I'm unable to absorb a variety of foods including B12.

I will need injections and monitor blood tests for the rest of my life.

But 

I have untreated ptsd and needle phobia and a history of leukamia and associated treatment since 1973..15 months old

Including late effects multiple brain tumours etc

Am extremely overwhelmed and not sure I can cope with yet another medical issue. 

I have dry skin, mouth ulcers that can last months and breathing difficulties which is how she's diagnosed the anemia. I have a brain mri next month when she has booked for me to have blood taken via the cannula.. if they can't get the cannula in she wants to put in a midline which she has also booked. I don't think I can face this.