I have perhaps over - consulted with Dr.Google so maybe that hasn't heped my anxiety.

A FIT test showed blood in the stool and blood tests showed iron deficiency anaemia - neither of which bothered me unduly until in the course of my hospital consultation it became clear that I was being interviewed for my reaction to the possibilty of cancer. ( Ive since received a synopsis of that consultation that refers to the 'suspected cancer pathway' ) I'm awaiting a gastroscopy & colonoscopy.

My reaction to Dr. Google veered between "Oh God- I'm stuffed" to "Nah -I'm being a drama queen-It's got be  polyps at the worst". However the letter pointed to two other symptoms that I had trivialised as "well that's old age for you", as well as making it clear that with my cardiac problems - surgery on a tumour would be out of the question and to quote "there is not much we could do about it".

All this is, I know, jumping the gun and as I'm nearly 80 I'm not so much afraid of dying as anxious to know one way or another what's going on.

Only my wife knows and I don't want to go on about it to her as she has her own problems. I have at least one close friend  but don't want to talk to him until I know the result. My children have no idea.

Am I wrong to keep it to myself?