Hello everybody,

Guess I am just posting in here to offload all my worries to people that completely understand.

2 people I love and care about have been diagnosed with cancer this year, one who has kicked its absolute butt !!! And the other we are currently waiting for the news. This scary time for all of us isn't about me. However I can't help but be so frightened, I feel as if it's triggered my health anxiety all over again, to the point I'm having panic attacks, crying and people who don't suffer just think I'm being pathetic but I cannot explain it.

im quite a moley person, especially on my scalp, which is why I panic more, because sometimes that makes them harder to detect and to look at properly. I have 2 on the side of my scalp near my left ear, both quite big, I would say over the size of what they should be and the size you'd call 'concerning' I have had these 2 moles checked out now by doctors twice during covid where I was told one was what they called a 'fried egg mole' and the other benign, well both being benign. I know it sounds silly but 2 people telling  me they are fine, just is not enough. I'm panicking now, especially since I've found out about my latest family member and I am trying to be supportive but I'm also going crazy inside. I tried to get through to the doctors again today even though they've already checked them twice but I was like 23 in the que, so I hung up because I thought, am I being ridiculous?

somebody help me, I just do not know what to do, am I over reacting considering they've already been checked twice. They are both discoloured and have more than one colour, however I've been told they are benign, I just can't help but think they aren't and I know that's my health anxiety getting the better of me. I just want to feel normal.