Hi everyone :happy:

This week I went for my first cervical screening and it was really horrific. I found it so painful - like so so painful - I tried to grit through it but it was too much to bear. She tried a smaller speculum but couldn't do it properly. She tried the other one again as I said to but again it was just too painful we had to stop..... I rlly tried to force through it but I just couldn't it was so painful, and it still hurt for the whole rest of the day afterwards. I've found alot of solace in reading through this forum, as when I left I was in tears and was surprised about how bad it made me feel. I felt like it meant I wasn't much of a woman if I couldn't do it, and there's something wrong with my sex organs. 
 

I need to go back and try again, but I'm scared. I'm scared that I'm going to have made it worse as well for future attempts. !! What to do...