My first colonocopy was booked for the very last appointment of the day although I had requested the first as I have extreme low blood sugar episodes if I dont eat. I felt ill when I went into the room, probably the laxatives (pixolax). I was given the sedation (midazolam I think. I felt the sedation, then the next thing I was walking out of the room. My friend was waiting outside. she asked how it went. I said 'fine'. She said I was screaming my jead off and when she spoke to whoever it was that carried it out the proceedure they said I was screaming and reaching up and they had to abandon the proceedure. I was puzzled as I had no recolection.
I was retching non stop after the proceedure and could not eat or drink and was sent to A and E. Finally I was given an anti emetic and I was ok.
I felt traumatised after the proceedure that I could not remember, and that is not too strong a word. It makes me angry when people use the word 'sensitive'. I am not 'over sensitive' and do not have a particularly low pain threshold. Nor am I particularly anxious.
Afterwards I knew I would rather die than experience it again. I jwas jumping and screaming at small movements and noises and this continued for quite a while. It didnt make sense as I did not remember the proceedure or any pain and everything I heard and read about colonoscopy said it was safe and I had taken sedatives.
II know that the tranquiliser is similar to the date rape drug. It just makes you forget. does that mean you do not experience the pain at the time? I know that women who have experienced rape under this drug are traumatised, although you could say that they were tranquilised so shouldnt have felt anything.
Blood was found in my stool so I may be offered another colonoscopy. If they offer increased sedation I suspect it will be more of the same.
