Hi
This is my first time posting in a forum chat room.
I've been to breast clinic yesterday for the first time and am now feeling really scared and upset. I'm looking for some advice, information and support. Or if anyone has experienced anything similar?
About 6 weeks ago I found a hard lump in the underside of my right breast which also sits behind the nipple. It's quite large and not really sure how I hadn't felt it before. It wasn't sore but I've since been poking about with it and worring about it, it was starting to feel a bit tender.
Not sure if it's related or a red herring but I've been breast feeding for 4 years . My first child was about 18 months when I feel pregnant with my second child. He would feed maybe only once a day or once every couple of days at the end and because of his size and comfort holding him on my left I only ever fed him from the left breast for the last few months. He stopped feeding completely about halfway through the pregnancy.
When my second son was born I tried to feed him from both sides. I felt like perhaps my milk didn't come in as well on the right ( I thought from left side feeding only perhaps my right wasnt making as much or let down not as good or something) also baby didn't seem to latch as well on the right. Inwas more comfortable holding him and feeding on the left side . I did try to offer the right side but he started to refuse to drink from that side, and just wanted to feed on the left.
I can't really remember when as its all a bit of a blur but I kind of gave up feeding on my right breast. He was getting enough from the left side only. Maybe around 5 months old ish. He's now 18 months and feeds in the morning, maybe once in the day and at bedtime .
I've always been able to squeeze some milk out the right breast. I never tried expressing on the side .
Naturally over time the right breast has reduced in size and I'd say over the last few months as my breast feeding on the left has really reduced ( no longer feeding all night long!) My right breast has shrunk even more I'd say its probably back to pre pregnany size now ( b cup I've always been very small) but im struggling to remember what my pre childbearing breasts were like now. Feels like lifetime ago.
My GP saw me the same day when I rang , then breast clinic apt was within 2 weeks. I merrily trotted in thinking the doctor was just going to do an examination. I just presuming it was my lack of feeding on that side issue - blocked or inflamed ducts or something.
I had an ultra sound scan , mammogram, biopsy ( fainted and cried during it ) then another monogram to check the metal clip. Was there for 3 hours.
I'm now really scared. Keep thinking of my 2 boys and fearing the worse. I feel stupid for only being able to feed from one side and not thinking about it or doing anything about it sooner. I feel a bit stupid.
I can't bear having to wait a couple of weeks for the results.
Just wondering if anyone had had anything similar?
I'd really appreciate any advice
Many thanks
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