Hello Pigginheck and thanks for posting, 

I am very sorry to learn about your situation and can understand this is a really tough time for you.

First of all, if you think your medicines are making you feel sick, please tell your doctors, they can prescribe anti-sickness tablets that might help - there are a range of them so if you have already tried one which didn't work don't be put off asking for another one. 

Try not to feel bad or guilty about taking time off work or not being able to babysit. I know this is difficult when you have commitments and want to be able to do what you usually do.  What's happening isn't your fault and you have to prioritise yourself for the moment. I feel sure your nearest and dearest and work colleagues will understand. 

With anything daunting I think you need to think in terms of taking small steps one at a time and the first one is to hear what the doctors have to say at this appointment. Perhaps you could ask to record it if you can on your phone as it is easy to forget everything that is said. Until you find out what they think you don't know where you stand, so try to keep as open a mind as you can about what can be done.

For the time being try to focus on things they help you relax or that you enjoy and, although I imagine it might be a challenge, try not to anticipate what the outcome of this appointment will be.

I hope this helps a little bit. If you want to talk to us our number is Freephone 0808 800 4040, we are here weekdays 9-5 but not on the Jubilee Bank Holidays.

Best wishes,

Julia